.5.23.17.
Up late again tonight {can stop obsessing over her breathing}. I am laying in bed listening to her... I've been watching her sleep for an hour and a half. We had a mini meltdown tonight. First one in weeks. My girl said some things tonight took my breath away, but not in a good way. Tonight she very specifically told me "I wish I could spend the night at my poppa's during the week like I used to" {this, of course, was in the middle of the mini meltdown, all because this meany mama said it was waaayyyyy past bed time and it was time to turn the tv and phones off. To which she replied with, laying in bed yelling/singing "I'm not tired. I'm not tired."}, any whoo OOO's... I couldn't, I just COULD N O T believe my ears. This girl made the most specific request. Not " I miss my dad" or "I wish I could see my poppa more". NOPE. Straight to "...during the week like I used to..." What in the entire fuck of all fucks?